Heartbreak

I'll start with the news -- on Wednesday, February 20, we went to the Citizenship and Immigration Services to get fingerprinted for the department of Homeland Security. This was the last step (if all goes smoothly) that we had to complete. Now we are waiting for approval to bring our child home, and then we get put on a waiting list for a child.

Matt and I also started a set of adoption classes on Saturday. This week we talked about stressors your child goes through before they come home. It really got me thinking about all that James, even as a little baby, will go through before we bring him home. First, he will have the heartbreak of losing his biological mother. While we don't, and maybe won't, know the circumstances under which he will be orphaned, it will be a HUGE loss for him regardless of the reason. Next he will go to a government orphanage before going to Hannah's Hope, the orphanage run by our adoption agency. So he will have the loss and heartbreak of being separated from two different sets of caregivers after losing his biological mom and before getting his forever family. My heart just aches for him. I pray that somehow he will be able to feel the love we have for him, even now before we've met him, and that God will envelope our sweet boy in His arms and protect him from all that hurt.